Goodness it always sucks when you go to bed dead tired and then... CAN'T SLEEP.

I was up at least half an hour with my mind just running complete circles around me.  It's a bit of an inner dialogue thing, but it started out on, umm... communism, then started mutating into that Khmer Rouge thing(Wow I didn't know it was so recent; 1975-1979) which I guess is still on communism but that especially sorta creeps me out.  Read up on it, nyaaaah. P:  It's really unsettling when you think about it: They basically marched everyone in like... a bunch of major cities in Cambodia to the country side to start their own rural communist farm but it wasn't exactly... a nice happy place(Hahaha Mrs. Johnson would've totally said that)  So pretty much one of those: 'HEY, let's control an entire country and force them to do what they want!' sort of things.

I finally fell asleep though!  And... woke up at 6:15.  Oof.  So I'm killing some time, don't feel like getting dressed for band oof!

I miss AP World History so much D8 That class was freaking AWESOME.  Mrs. Johnson is like, THE best social studies teacher.  We did so much stuff and honestly?  That was the class where I learned how to write an essay!  Not english, world history. xD  Aaaaah I want to be an aide for her next yeaaaaaar!!!!  And maybe take Geography, just so I can bug her!

OH I SHOULD SHOW HER MY UNICORN BOOK ONCE ITS DONE :O

I'm really tired and I keep getting headaches.  They piss me off, and I expect that they might be the reason I've been feeling like I've been crying or something; the lights are probably irritating my eyes and I'm probably dehydrated and just oof!  Like right now I'm really sluggish. 


So printmaking is a pain in the ass.  Scully said, y'know, when I wanted to do dry point 'I don't think you have the muscle for it!!!' in her Scullyish way that sorta intimidates you, but umm... that kind of stuff tends to motivate me to do it, just so I can be an ass and prove the person wrong. xD;  So, lets do all three dry point!!!!!!!

HOLY FUCK.

We use these sort of scratch awl things... but the one I use is like... a little piece of metal that's sharp on both ends and that's it--No handle or such.  Actually, those are the only ones she has; the other stuff in that drawer is more for wood working... not gouging plastic.  Dry point is basically scratching into plastic or metal or whatever, then making a print by rubbing ink into it, running it through the printing press, la de daaaaa.

I figured I'd be fine, yeah? Can't take THAT much effort; she's just trying to scare me.  ..... -_-;  For one thing, with the amount of force you have to use to scratch into the plastic AND follow the lines you need to, you could very well, hmmm... stab the awl through one side of your calf and through the other.  I'm not kidding.  And then, because of all that force(you hold it like a pencil, basically) it puts MAJOR strain on your thumb, index and middle finger.  My index finger was red and swollen last night. P:  They still hurt, the tips of all three those fingers.

And now once you've effectively murdered your hand, it's time to make the print!  The process is pretty confusing and such, I'll spare you the babble.  But... You take the ink, which is... thick, goopy, oil based.  It's gross.  Doesn't come off your hands with water or soap.  Put gloves on first, 'cuz you use your hands to do this. xD  Rub it over the printing plate so what you want covered is covered...  Now you're supposed to rub 90% of it off again. :)

So you take cheesecloth(sort of mesh cloth thing, I dunno) and rub away at the print to take the ink off.  It takes a lot of effort to do this, mind.  A good few minutes of scrubbing away at this, and maybe you'll have enough ink rubbed off where the print will work.  Do you know for sure? Nope!  Go print it. ;)

Half the time it comes out as too dark or too light.  So you have to repeat the process over and over, rubbing ink on and off until your entire arm wants to just turn to jello.  Then you'll finally get one and realise 'Hey, this is a print! It can't be perfect' and just... accept it for what it is.

And then that ink that I said didn't come off with soap? Yeah.  Take lotion.  Enough lotion to like, smooth out any callouses on your feet(gross huh?) and just rub it on your hands and HOPE the ink comes off.

Repeat 3 times. :)

I have one print done.  It took... 4 or 5 tries.

Goodness I am tired of having a headache!!!!!  I need to lay down, like seriously... lay down and drink some nice cold water.

Hahaaaa, I just realised part of my problem when it comes to making decisions and such(btw I found the scratch awl thing and proceeded to mangle my poor hand P:)

I look at both sides too much! Not a bad thing, persay... But pesky when you want to make a decision.  It's like a clause or something!  Why yes, I support this, but not in this case!  Yes, I find that appaling, but not everything is like that!  Always always always

I have a major headache right now and it pisses me off.  Right at the base of my neck around to my right templeish, but it's worse at the base of my neck and down my back(which is probably from me sitting poorly and staying up late last night slouched and reading...)  But goodness it sucks.  I hate headaches

ON THE PLUS SIDE... I did most of my chemistry packet and it isn't due until TUESDAY.  I am amazed.

Oh, and in art we're required to do this... Sister Cities whatever competition thingummy, and the theme is Your Path to Peace.  Extremely cheesy, but I already have some ideas even though they interpret the whole thing... quite loosely. xD;  But hey, what better way to stick a dog in there but supporting bully breeds? ;)  Doesn't that count?  Plenty of fighting over that, what else would I do?  It represents something I stand for, some 'path to peace' somewhere in that head of mine!  A nice happy pit bull who's got a home, yessir yessir!  Path to peace!!!

Here's to hoping Scully doesn't hate the idea!!!!!! Goodness Scully scares me sometimes; I'm glad she likes me!!!

But if we win, we get money and it goes on to DC where we possibly get more money and it travels around the world for a year P:  I doubt that'd happen for me thoughhhhh

HERE'S TO SPARKING CONTOVERSY

Whoooo

This icon totally depicts what I feel like doing! Whoooo

I still hurt though!!!

I got bored and felt like changing my journal theme. P:  That slate blue was pretty, but it got boring.  Plus, I like messing around with colors to see what looks good. :)  Reds are particularly hard to figure out; easy to turn pink or orange or dull it.  -babble-

I always feel so strange when I say my favorite colors are red and blue.  When I say that, it seems like... I dunno! It just brings up those really ugly navy blues in my mind, or the blues that are JUST blue without any other color to them.  I don't like those blues.  I like slate blues or bright blues(acid triiiiiip!)  Not pure blue.  But with red, I really like most any red.  I like more... orangey reds than purple ones, though.  Or just plain red--Crimson, ya?  Greyed reds can look pretty cool too, but only if they're around other dulled colors. :)  Still, saying red and blue seem strange.  I usually just say that I like blue.  And really, I like most colors.  Not so much green, but green is just an awkward color to work with.  Natural colors are really pretty, but again--Gotta be reddish.  Blue browns are so bland...

I don't like pink, either.  Lighter reds CAN look good, until they turn pink.  D:<

So yeah, I got bored of blue.  Red is pretty. p:  I still might change a few things... it's hard to get things looking exactly how I want them!

I'm really hungry, but I guess it doesn't matter because I'm going to a pot luck in like... half an hour. xD  So... I'll eat then.

I don't want to do my homework.  I finished my Chemistry stuff, but I still have to read for english and answer some bullshit questions.  Not to mention sketches for critique, oh god -sob-  I didn't even get to work on my prints... x_x;  I'ma collapse

I need more time but I don't want it.  This weekend has been too long.

Mmm, I always manage to find random things to interest me and further build up my list!!!!  Double Arts.  Awesome manga, go look it up. =P  It's only 24 chapters 'cuz it got cut short, which sorta makes me sad because I really like it so far D8  Tch tch tch, such is life such is life.

Colds suck. D:<  Grr.  Woah it's 2 already?  What have I been doing today, then? oO;  Hahaha rock band.  I said Xenosaga, but I felt like singing more than anything else, which is strange given my cold! Ugh, thankfully it's not one of those monster colds that leave me completely miserable; my one run in with Dayquil was enough for me, yeah?

Seriously though, if you saw my face when I was downing that shit you'd probably start laughing!  It was gross and left a really weird feeling all in my sinuses.  I'd rather down cherry cough syrup than that shit haha!

I should probably do some homework...  I have to read stuff for english, answer a few questions...  Nothing in chemistry...  And then in art I have that giant painting to work on, hahaha!  I really like painting, I found out.  I was a little hesitant at first, because it seems like something you can't fix mistakes with... but you really can!  It's nice. :)  And plus, I take great pride in mixing my own beautiful black without using black!  That was fun.

Mmmm, there's supposed to be a really interesting show on tonight at 7.  Time Warp.  Saw a commercial for it, but they're pretty much slowing down time(DUR) and showing you a bunch of cool things, like someone catching an arrow in mid flight!  Oooo, discovery channel has some videos online to look at.  Fun fun fun!  The videos take forever to load thoughhhhh

I had so many weird dreams last night.  Now, I'm not one to never have strange dreams, and in fact most of my dreams ARE weird and make no sense, because I can never get the complete picture of a dream.  It's hard to explain... Like, I can see the dream, I know what's going on and who's talking, but I wouldn't be able to tell you the specifics.  No, I don't know where we are.  No, I don't know who that is.  No, I don't know what color shirt you were wearing.  I'll be left with overall feelings more than concrete images, even in cases where they're dreams that stay in my mind for years (I had a dream that I was chased through a red walled motel by maniacs.  Some hippie dude with a knife and a crazy ass grandma with a purse, plus a gang!  Sounds funny, it wasn't.)  I suppose I'm just a strange person, hmm?

But seriously, these dreams last night were just... wtf?  The first one!  A friend is suicidal.  Actually, we're talking on aim and she is taking ages to reply to anything.  I don't remember anything that was said, but I do remember the whole suicidal bit.  No clue where that dream came from.  AH!  Now I remember one thing she said, sorta.  She isn't just suicidal, she is "suicidal again"  I don't quite know why she said that, especially since the dream came from my mind(hahaha we all know THAT'S fucked up though, eh?)  Don't bother asking who "she" is, because I'm not gonna tell ya =P  So nyah!

Next dream!  Me and some friends are in the lunch room, babbling about nonsense.  But the lunch room is connected to my bedroom or something?  I dunno.  There was this girl who was a bit strange; had a lot of embroidery floss, don't know why.  But she starts trashing my room and all of a sudden she's gone.  For whatever reason I go into my room and lay down, it's all dark yeah?  Like, you can't see anything.  And then some creepy ass alarm goes off(I get the feeling of the color red here, too...) and that girl is pinning me down with a fucking knife!  I woke up then--the tv was really loud so I'm guessing I heard something.  But it scared the shit outta me.

And I know I had another one, but that just escapes my mind completely!  Dreams are so strange though.  I always try to figure out what could lead me to dreams like I have.  Why red?  Why embroidery floss?  Why the alarm?  Why her?  It confounds me.  What does it all mean?  And as much as I like interpreting dreams, don't direct me towards any one book or website.  I find those a little silly; why would someone ELSE be able to interpret your mind without knowing you?  Red for me, and red for another person could mean completely different things.  Nothing is concrete, nothing has just one meaning.  And sometimes, things are pretty easy to find out.  Nightmare means stress.  Simple.  Regardless of the content, a nightmare means that I am stressed.

Mmmm, I love dreams. :)  They are just so interesting!  You ever had any interesting dreams? ;)

I FEEL LIKE PLAYING ROCK BAND 2, YES?

I need to stop finding video games and anime and manga that interest me!!!!!!  Jeez, my list of what I want to play keeps getting longer and longer!  It's ridiculous!  Arrrrgh, I'm doomed!  THIS WEEK, MAN.  THIS WEEK, I'M GOING TO CRACK INTO SOME OF THE LIST.  Because it needs to be chopped down!  Maybe I'll sit down and finally finish FFX(Oh wait no, that's gonna take hours of level grinding hahaha)  Anime? 24 episodes at 20 minutes each is 8 hours.  I could take out a chunk of one anime or so a day!!!!  Xenosaga?  Hahaaaaa, level grinding and sheer horror!!!  Sounds like my kind of game ;)  Let's see let's see...  XENOSAGA, yes!  Happy happy level grinding, whip Momo into shape despite dearest Gabby and Kassy hating her guts!  Yes yes yes, 8 hours!!! XENOSAGA.  Level grind!!!  Kick ass!  YESSSSSS

Mmmmmm yessss! Doesn't that sound nice?  If only my stomach would stop hating me!  Or haha my body in general, yes?  Feeling generally sick and then mega cramps and just aaagh, not cool!  Periods suck.  MRRR.

Yes yes yes, I must clean right now though!!!  My mom has designated me to clean the computer desk because the mess is all mine and it is ugly mess.  Ugly ugly.  Beaten with ugly stick!!!

Hahaha, Eeyore!  He's cuter, and crazy peppy people sorta scare me, to be honest!

http://www.nofna.com/

I feel compelled to plug this wonderful web comic! :)  NOFNA, Nature of Nature's Art.  Honestly, I can't describe it that well.  It's a web comic with animals, but... that means nothing.  I guess it almost falls under... philosophy?  Very deep web comic, very involved, leaves you questioning, it's freaking amazing!  One arc's finished and Zach just started a second on while he's compiling the first for book release -drool-  Seriously though, check it out.  Every one of you.  Start with 10%+, keep going.  It's long(the first arc took about a year, usually a page a day) but SO worth it.  READ IT. :)

The fight scenes are epic anyway.  Crazy ass animal martial arts, c'mon, what isn't cool about that?  AND THE ART.  oh man it gets so intense--this guy improved so much over a year!!!  I love his art!

Nofna is epic.  :D

Goodness(I've been saying goodness a lot lately xD), I need to upgrade my lj!!! 15 icons isn't enough!!!!!! 100000000000000, yes? xDDDD

Grrrr I have a sore throat and a stomach ache!  That is not fun.

So i gotta rush to finish stuff up for spookamaga.  I have Mr. Wolfy's head finished for the most part--I just need to add on a neck piece and I'll be dandy, and probably a tongue... Hahahaha xD  He's far from perfect, but given how I started last Friday... for a week he isn't that bad! xD  I'm content enough.  I also want paws, so I'll do those tonight as well...  I've got a cloak lined up for me, so I can pass on a tail xDDDD; I might do one just for the sake of it; IF I have time.  Ja?

Baaaaah time for homework or Mr. Wolfy or something!  LET'S DO THOSE PAWS YA?

Next fursuit I make, I'm definitely going to take more time. 8D;  And I'm going to use fur that isn't so fucking crazy, it's a pain in the ass trying to figure out which way it lays!  Shorter fur too!  Once I get money D8 I have no money

PAWS INDEED YES YES?

So aaaah, I got farther on Mr. Wolfy. :) He now has eyebrows(I added more foam at the last minute to make them even bigger xD;) and I sorta tinkered around to fill in some awkward areas that still needed fur... I'm definitely a newbie at all this, pulled some very ghetto moves that I won't do again, but overall he doesn't look that bad!  I'm really wishing I could've found like... black fur or something dark, and... a little more managable(I swear, that fur is SO pretty, but it's a pain in the ass!) but I had to make due with what I had; the only black fur there felt like bear fur. =P  Not what I wanted, but maybe I should've been a bit less careless?

And then I cut out the cheek pieces, but realised I still have other homework so I stopped myself.  I'm pretty much done with basic furring, though!  I've been trimming along the way a bit, oh man I think I might want clippers when I do this again xD;  Using the scissors has ruined my wrist--Some sort of muscle, tendon, whatever, that's connected to the first two fingers is so sore!  It aches down through my wrist, which sucks.  I shouldn't be typing heheh

STILL to do with Mr. Wolfy here, is a lot of little detail work.  Nose, inside mouth, ears, etc etc.  I desperately want paws, and it seems like I might be able to!  My mom's gonna sacrifice a pair of gloves for me, if I want.  Life is being remarkably tight on time, but I will try my hardest to finish things!

And man, that essay that has been haunting me is looking better and better!  I am very glad that my laziness kept me from rewriting it from scratch, because it wasn't AS bad as I thought it was. ^^;  Sackaroff looked it over and gave me some suggestions, he seemed very amused by the whole thing (And I think he was looking into it all a bit TOO much xDDD;  It made me giggle) and man I am SO glad I stuck with it.  I prolly learned more by not rewriting the whole thing, hahaha!

Gaaaaaaah people talking politics is so annoying when all they do is trash talk and laugh!  Anyone can do that!  Anyone can make anyone look bad, and blow things out of proportion!  Goodness sake, why not take the time to read up on things?  Not everything can be taken at face value, especially people!  You'd have to be insane to do that.  =P

Baaaah I think that Boomer would make a lovely president!  Everyone vote Boomer president!  Fluffy fat cat of love!  Promotes Sarahism and catnip legalisation!  Sound good? Good to me!  Boomer for president!  Catnip party!

Y'know, I don't think I will ever be able to play the drums without some intense reworking of my brain paths xD;  Seriously.  When I watch Missa play Rock Band, she makes it seem so... simple!  She's insane to watch.  And I can understand the basic beats behind it, hell I can sit there singing along to different rhythms in songs and get by fine but when I get to trying to play it, my mind halts.  My feet and my hands really can't seperate themselves, that's my problem.  I'm one of those ball jointed dolls that has to be guided, and even then I come across as awkward.  And what's worse, I'm a doll with strings running from ankle to wrist! When one moves, so does the other when I'm trying to do something like that.

Yes.  That is an acceptable analogy.  Makes sense to me, that's all that matters, eh?

Gaaaar, I've gotta take a shower then work on Mr. Wolfy!  Yes, Mr. Wolfy is a suitable name for him.  Oh and I gotta clean too.  And prolly work on homework.  Bwahahaha I shall edit that essay BEFORE he tells us when it's due!  I have a brain tonight!

SO CHECKLIST MAN

-Shower
-Mr. Wolfy
-Clean
-Homework

Yessssss

Urgh I'm tired and sorta grumpy now because I'm running low on energyyyyy. -sob-

I am probably about... halfway done furring Mr. Wolfy?  Something like that.  I've got the entire muzzle and running up the bridge of the nose with fur hanging over behind the ears.  A little bit of a downer: I made the pattern before realising just how I was going to set the eyes, and I made it without thinking that I indeed have a larger head than my neck... So I have it for basic shapes, but there's gaps I'm gonna have to eyeball, and other not so fun stuff -sob-  And that cut on my finger is irritated so baaaaah I'll have to grab a band aid.

Yeah, I'm definitely off whatever high I had yesterday!  Now I just wanna sleep, but I still have homework to do. -sob-  I am so tired...  I need a shower, but I have no energy to take one.  I just want to sleep!

Aaaaagh grumpy grumpy Britt, I am so grumpy.  See, I know I'm grumpy when I get frustrated with anyone telling me to do something.  Baaaah, clean up a little, get your homework done, go to bed, blah de daaaah.  And that's how I feel right now.  My back is sore and I'm so tired.  I have roughly 5 days to finish up Mr. Wolfy.  5.  Baaaah!

Gaaaaarrrrr

Hahaha, I thought that I had escaped any injury by blade yesterday (I used numerous scissors and Exacto blades =P) and... I guess I didn't. xD I have a little cut on my left middle finger, which is amusing because I cut my right middle finger with an exacto blade in sculpture two years ago =P  And now I'm certain the weather is twitching my ankle off; why do I sound like an old lady already? -sobsob-

I'ma edit this post with some pictures!!!!!! Once I run upstairs haha, they're all on my phone

BUT, what I want to get done today!!!!!
-Fur Mr. Wolfy
-Make Mr. Wolfy's eyes(these I have to figure out still..)
-Make teeth and nose and suchly
-Get more gluesticks! D8 I used them all yesterday
-Finish up my art sketch, oh god 16x20 canvas!
-Tackle any other homework I put off

Dun dun dun!!!! I'm off to upload pictures =P

EDIT: Here are some pictures!!!





Whooyaaaay xD

Degrassi continues to amaze me. xD;  I have literally sat in front of the TV all day, and most of the time I was watching the wonderful Degrassi!  Quite epic, might I say.

See, there's always new drama in each episode.  It's intense, and there's so many different story lines some characters might not pop up for awhile(then again, they're playing out of order episodes D:<)  It makes you giggle a LOT because of how dramatic everyone is, and they make it even more dramatic with the music hahaha.  This current episode sorta sucks.  Some adult love triangle going on, no thanks!  I like the random teenage drama more =P

LIKE THIS ONE EPISODE.  It was about a girl named Ellie, who is the whole goth girl, ya know?  And she's actually a really pretty girl, lemme tell you that(I'm random today, mmk? LET ME BASK IN MY HAPPINESS)  But her dad went off to the military for sommat and she she was sad, but her mom went all... crazy alcoholic and basically laid on the couch draining the booze supply.  And Ellie was going to interview for this job, but on the same day this other girl, preppy Paige was being a bitch to her(she's trying for the same positionnnnn) and made her feel like crap and Ellie thought her interview went horribleeeee... And when she got home her mom was all 'baaaaaaw' on the couch and started puking or something when Ellie was in her room... AND THEN THIS NEEDS EPIC EFFECTS RIGHT HERE

Ellie is all sad, and the drama music kicks in, the camera pans and focuses on her school stuff!  Sitting there is a lovely compass, one of those cheap metal things that you only use in like 5th grade to draw circles, so beats me why a highschooler has one!  But the camera flips to her face, dun dun dun she is le sad, then back to the compass and it's shiny metal point! Get where I'm heading?  Yeah.  More dramatic effect!  It cuts to her holding it against her arm and then CUT to her face, dun dun dun all of a sudden she has tears streaming down her cheeks all fake like aaaaand the scene fades black!  Very emo.

Turns out she gets the job, irony irony!  And the lady is all 'Yeah, what do you think about launching a... teen help center?!?!?!?!' so even more irony haha she's going around interviewing companies about their teen help, and they take great liberty to pan the camera in to ANY sharp object near her, OH NOES A PAIR OF SCISSORS UNDER HER BINDER.  Goodness.  And her mom is still hacking up her stomach at home, drinking all the booze, so she's still being emo and depressed la de daaaaa.

One day she gets to school late and the secretary is all 'raaaawr you're always late because of that job! You can lose it you know!?!?!?!' so Ellie gets incredibly emo and runs into the bathroom to cry(honestly I would never cry in a bathroom!  School bathrooms are creepy) and takes out her beautiful little compass, is about to slice open her arm again when...
THE DOOR OPENS!!!!

And it's Paige, preppy cheerleader!  Ellie drops her compass into the sink and tries to act innocent heheh but Paige is all 'Ellie! Your arm!' and it's bleeding, of course.  of course of course of course--Are you getting a sense of the drama in this show?  Ellie makes up an excuse and runs off but Paige is no idiot, duuuuh.  And she tells some counselor and Ellie is in therapy dun dun dun!

That was all one episode. =P  It's very drama filled, but for some reason I just can't stop watching!  It's so cliche!  All the characters are so fucked up! (See, Ellie's boyfriend also ended up being gay and Ellie's house sets on fire 'cuz of her mom and she ends up living alone and almost having sex with her gay ex boyfriend and and and =P)  But it amuses me!  It makes me happy!  And this week has sucked so happy is good!

My werewolf is turning out well. :)  I'm almost done foaming the head; I'm trying to tweak things... and I think I might try to start furring tonight! I want to get more done, at least!

Oh dude my ankle hates me today, it's strange.

Holy fuck foam smells funny xD;  I made a really ghetto looking balaclava(like seriously... Guh-hetto!)  and that took me a bit because I had no clue what I was doing hahaaaa  I was too lazy to go looking for one of the many hot glue guns sitting in our house, so I started making the ears...  Got one of them done, but I'm tired!  I need me some sleep for tomorrow, because this is going to be a huge project in little time!  Huge for me, at least. =P  So I'm gonna start messing around tomorrowwwww

And I'm relying all on my wonderful womanly intuition to guide me through this, hahaha!  No concept art, not even a full image in my head--just werewolf! I've got the fur!!!  I've got the supplies I need!  And I'm just gonna hope that I can pull something together, see if I can transform into 3-D!  I'll just keep hacking away at things until it looks right!

Mmhmm!  I'll take pictures eventuallyyyyyy, once I get the foaming done I think... This is gonna be uber speed project agh!  See I always do this to myself and it creates a lot of stress I know it!  Why do I do it? I don't know!  But such is life!  I will be stupid!  Inevitable!  Stupid!  And I shall get this done!  I will have an awesome project!  Epic!

Woooow Degrassi makes me laugh sooooo much.  In one episode I saw the end of, this girl did E and lost all her friends and sobbed at the end of the episode when her parents got home(she had a party when she wasn't supposed to! typical!)  and now this one is about this guy I think his name is... Craig? Someone is craig.  He has a sister or a half sister who lives with some other dude and he lives with his dad.  He's not supposed to see his sister because his dad is crazy ass crazy, like seriously.  But he sees her anyway(he's like... teenage and she's a little kid) and gets in trouble and his dad beats him and breaks things(again, typical!)  and so he tries to run away with his sister but the other dude catches him and is all 'FUCK YOU GET AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER'  and so he wants to run away with a friend... but the friend doesn't want to so the kid(yeah let's call him craig.  The emo one who gets beat) stands infront of a train and plays chicken and his dad finds out and... beats him, so typical!  And the other dude finds out about craig's emo suicidalness and is all 'Does your dad beat you?' in a really dramatic sort of voice  and I think there was crying going on!  And there's 5 minutes left for more emoness!

But really, what is with teenage drama shows?  I watch them to laugh.  It's actually a nice way to pass time hahaha!  The drama is just... so intensely corny.  It's like watching some video in health class, haha!  Except they don't make the right choices, they make the wrong ones xD;  And like... yeah I know it touches on subjects that most shows would flip out over, but does it have to be so dramatic?  If I want teenage drama, I will go and rent The Virgin Suicides.  At least it drops the corniness. =P  And keeps the whole emo side in, hahaha

Wow so Craig(his name IS craig!) decided to leave his dad and live with... the other dude I think? I dunno.  Other dude is bald haha  And anyway Craig went in to get his stuff and his dad was all 'Don't leave! I love you son D8' and denied beating him.  What is with the drama?  Seriously!  And like... that whole 'I'ma gonna abuse you then profess how much I care 10 minutes later' thing, while VERY TRUE, is so over done in teenage drama.  You get it with friends, boyfriends, parents, and hell I'm sure there's a corrupted teacher somewhere in the mix with drama!  Make up original storylines!!!!  Don't rehash the same things over and over!

wow I totally just went on and on... about Degrassi. xD; How lame am I?  Hahahaha there's another episode on!  I'ma get to bed before I start babbling about random things that I shouldn't, heehee

FRITH I AM SO HAPPY TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY.  THAT IS AMAZING.

I'm a zombie! 8D  And I've got a paper to write! Whoo?  I honestly should've done it earlier, but in my defense, I had a friend over ya?  Haha we can ignore the fact that I said I'd get it doneeeee.  But I am SO tired right now.  No clue why.  I slept! I slept very well!  I did nothing!  And I'm tired. -sobsob-  Ugh I just don't know how to start it!  How can I start a descriptive essay?  How can I?  Urk!  About an event.  I know the event.  How do I figure the details out how I want?

And I have chemistry stuff due wednesday aaaagh! I'll have to do that tomorrow.  Not gonna happen tonight.  I'm gonna die.

I am dead! Dead dead dead!

Time to do my paper! This journal was pointless!  Whoo!

GAH I hate how I used to be so much more eloquent!  What happened to my brain, people?  Did I lose my eloquency?  Grrrrr

I could survive for 32 seconds chained to a bunk bed with a velociraptor

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HM_uQdYELvE&feature=related

Heehee! I am a really sleepy little girl right now. I got a headache in Chemistry while I was taking my test... Over all I think my grumpiness from last night was dragged over to today, and I have no clue why! But whatever, hopefully I won't collapse too much after pep band... Bah! Today was the last day I wanted to have pep band. Grrrr

Whatever... I'll crash tonight, maybe do some of my homework... then have funnnnn 8D I'm just so worn out that I'm grumpy... But don't want to do anything about it. That's a bit strange for me!

We're onto the second project out of 9 in web design... We're doing 5 web sites total, step by freaking step. I almost finished TWO of those 5 today. =P That class is so boring, but I get to read! xD

I'm off to grab some food!!!

La de da de daaaaa, today is a good day.  It just is!  Happy people make for happy Britt, yes yes?

Haha last night I woke up at like 2:30 to my mom letting Bear outside 'cuz I guess he had to go potty or something?  I started overheating and got a glass of water, then when I went to lay down I realised I was like... not tired anymore.  AGH.  Bear ended up sleeping with me; he looked about as restless, so we both laid there... not sleeping.  I was probably awake for at least an hour, with my head spinning in circles.  I literally just said the same thing over and over, trying to make sense of myself and say what I wanted to say.  I do that a lot, but when I'm in a daze and trying to fall asleep it happens more often, haha.  It's like... I'll go through possible conversations in my head.  And I don't think they end up as me thinking about how to reply to OTHERS, but how to figure myself out.  Because I really am having a conversation with myself when I do that; I ask questions and answer them, respond, all that jazz.

I really am crazy ;)

Today is a good day!  Still a good day!  I feel really good about myself for some reason, which is an EPIC thing!  WHOO!!!  And school was pretty spiffy!  In art we were doing still lifes and I drew three peanuts xD;  And Chemistry we did a lab thing that was boring but chem is ALWAYS boring.  Seriously.  Drone and droneeeeee, that's all the teacher does.  So I sit there and read!  Reading is fun!  Band is always the same, so whatever that class doesn't matterrrrrr.  In web design I decided to screw design view and do flat out coding myself; I am STILL miles ahead in that class -_-;  But whatev!  I get to read in that class as well :)  AND ENGLISH.  Haha English!  We talked about grades, because Sackaroff doesn't like having to grade things but he still has to grade anyway and he wanted to know our opinionnnnnn.  Right now I literally have no grade in that class, and most everything is just based on completion.  =P  And we read this thing about a weasel which I liked and he told us we get to write about an event and edit our stupid papers we wrote over the summerrrrrr.  I'm looking forward to writing about the event because I know JUST what I wanna write about and I'm all pumped for it so whoo!!!!!!

:)  I'm just that epic.  And I'm getting closer to being done with Lolita whoo!  That book is interesting :) Even though I know how it ends xDDDD;  Fwahahahaha

I am so incredibly hyper right now, so I think I'm gonna go upstairs or get food or SOMETHINGGGGGGGG

PEACE!

I'm really tired and I shouldn't be on the computer 8D;  I have homework to do, but I don't really know what because my stuff is all over the place...  And quite frankly I don't care right now.  Not even sure why, but I'm already falling into my usual trench of doom!  Isn't that just epic?

Even though it rained like, the entire time we were up at the camper, I still had fun. =P  Got drenched and such, and then this morning I woke up with those LOVELY tell tale cramps; a week late, of course.  -_-;  I already had a pad on because I was expecting it, but I was spent a good portion of my day lying on a bed... I didn't feel like sitting around, but I AM glad because it's not too bad. :)  My stomach is just incredibly ANGRY at the world.

And now tomorrow it's school again D8  Ugh I just don't wanna go to school tomorrow...  I don't even know what I want to avoid...  I have 2 abstract paper cutting junk pieces due for art on tuesday, along with two sketches...  I honestly hate drawing on a full page, so this is murder for me.  Chemistry... I have a packet that I finished...  And I think we're having a chapter test soon? Dunno.  Don't care.  Band is nothing, duh...  Web Design is just chill time practically; pathetically easy...  And English, I half assed some reading, don't think I have anything else...

Gaaaaaaar why is school already becoming such a chore?

I dunno. My mind is stupid tonight.  I'm off to half ass some shit, yay!!!!!

Y'know, even though I felt like complete CRAP last night (My teeth were aching, cankersores killing me, I had a headache, etc etc etc) I'm very accomplished today. :)  I got all my homework done!  And it's not even 7 yet, which is amazing!  I think I might be a little sick or something, because my lymph nodes on my jaw are swollen, which tends to happen with cankersores and me being sick... And I have a bit of a sore throat, still a little headache, la de daaaaa!  Oh and then there's the whole 'where's my period?' thing going on.  Whoo. -_-;  But whatever!

I'm still content with the world for the moment.  Like...  I'm not feeling fantastic, but I don't feel like shit anymore. =P

I did a lot of reading in school today... Read through most of Chemistry and then Web Design...  Ugh Web Design sucked today!  We were just supposed to get started with Dreamweaver...  We don't have actual computers, though.  Like, we've got monitors and all, but no true computer.  It's run through a server, blah de da.  ONE server.  So 30 kids were trying to use the same program all at once; the computers were going SO slow!  They'd hang up every time you did anything.  So I read.  And read.  And read.

Reading always makes me sorta tired.  Especially when it's something that you have to focus on, and BOY I've got books that make you focus.  I never thought I'd be reading about religion and philosophy, but somehow I am!  I don't think I've ever found books that just make me sit there and turn the words over in my mind, picking apart the meaning as best  I can.  Great way to get vocab!  Veeeery slow reading, too.

Ughhhhhh stress people arguing I do not like arguing AGH

Today has been fairly uneventful...  I got woken up at like, one in the morning by a friend to do something, and consequentially scaring myself shitless after she went back to bed.  I could sense it coming towards the end of our conversation, and alas, my mind went crazy on me!  Such is life. =P  Then she woke me up at six and we both fell back asleep again... Oops.  When I FINALLY woke up for real, while I was feeding Bear I rammed SMACK into our kind kitchen table; nice little physics lesson early in the morning. e_e;  It's the same one I hurt a week or so ago, in the same spot... So that bruise is back now. -le sigh-

And then another friend gave me a bunch of CDs to put on my iTunes, so I'm gonna do that in a bit when I decide I want to clean my room as well... -coughcough-  I have clothes all over the floor... Dishes...  Ahahaha I rarely even go up there!  So it's a little confusing as to why it always gets messy... Whatevs!

I think I am gonna go upstairs now. xD;  Haha

Wheeeeeeee, can you imagine how tired I am right now?  I've been walking around all day pretty much. xD;

The ren fest was epic.  Seriously epic.  It was like an anime con, except with dogs and cooler merchandise xD;  I got a necklace and an awesome bamboo walking stick.  There was so much stuff I would've LOVED to buy, but things there were expensive. xD  The necklace was 8 dollars and the walking stick was 15, with most walking sticks being at LEAST 30, 40 bucks.  So I turned down all the fancy wood ones with like, burned designs in them(60 bucks!) or the twisted one(100 bucks!!!) and so what I have is literally just bamboo xD  No rubber at the bottom or anything.  But it is epic!

And oh gosh, everyone LOVED Bear.  So many people came up to us saying how cute he was, especially when he was getting tired so we were carrying him around xD  He was loving the attention too, obviously. =P

I don't really have much else to say. xD It was fun!  Whoo!  Fun is good, yes?

We're heading to the MN Ren Fest today!  Whoop whoop!  First time ever, so I'm freaking excited for it!  We'd always go to the State Fair instead, which is cool, but all you can really do is walk around and eat fried foods. =P  I'm not too keen on rides.  Whooooooo!  And somehow, we decided to bring dogface with us, so Mr. Bear's coming with xD

Aaaaand I'm back from the first day of school!  It wasn't too busy of a day, but I'm worn out...  Like absolutely DEAD. xD;

-Art
-Chemistry
-Band
-Web Design
-English

That's my schedule for the tri. :)  I have lunch after Chemistry, but it might change to after Band... I'm not sure yet bah!  The day was... interesting, I suppose?  I got a new sketchbook in art, which... surprised me, to say the least!  I needed a new one anyway, so I'll probably use this one.  Chemistry is going to be boring as HELL.  I barely know anyone (This always happens to me in classes...) and meh, I'll just force my way through it.  Band is band. =p  I'm a little nervous but whatever...  Web Design is full of people I don't know, but it seems like it's going to be fun.  And English is... definitely gonna be fun. :)  He told us we had to write each day, about whatever.  And he didn't care what that whatever was.  I ALREADY do that with this journal xD;

Then after school we ended up walking home and dragged some friends with us... Then rushed back to the school for volleyball. xD;  That was amusing.  I'm only just settling down, actually.

I swear I had more to say... but I don't... Hmm

Eeeeee, I'm off to school in like... 40 minutes.  Oof!  I woke up at 6.  I don't think I need THIS much time to get ready for school, but I know in a week or so I'm gonna start laying around for half an hour before waking up... xD;

Tea bags on canker sores really do work :)  I'm quite happy about that, 'cuz we have an endless amount of tea!!!  And it doesn't taste that bad, hahaha  The tannic acid is supposed to do something, but I think part of the reason it helps is because it dries out your mouth.

Oof, life is always so confusing!  I thought my schedule was all fine and dandy, but I had to tell my band teacher about dropping band one tri because she sorta needs to know these things...  And now she wants to see if I can be in symphonic band second tri!  Aaaagh I asked her what hour it was because if it's 5th hour I automatically have to rule it out--I'm NOT dropping AP English.  I can't drop Chemistry or US History either...  I'm not dropping my gym class...  Art's out of the question because if I dropped that, I'd have room for that tri of band again xD; And I'm just not going to drop it.  That leaves web design, creative writing, pottery, and digital imaging ii.  I don't particularly want to drop any of those classes, either...

Aaaaghhhhh I keep trying to call and the line is busy!!!!!!!

:) We went to walmart today and I picked up some foam for Nanaki!  FINALLY I broke though and actually got some supplies, oof!  Still need a balaclava, but that I'll need to probably order online.  That made me really happy, heehee!  AND I got some spiffy ass new shoes(I needed 'em!) and so I'd say I'm pretty content with the world right now. :)

I think I might spend tomorrow working on my essay... we'll see how the creative juices areeee, but man I wanna get it done soon!  Right now my brain isn't quite into it, but y'know what? I think I might try.  At least get SOMETHING down...

This is a pointless journal! xD

I've had a lot of dreams lately.  I normally don't remember my dreams unless they're particularly interesting, but I've been waking up multiple times from dreams now.

The only bad thing is that they've been pseudo-nightmares.  Two nights in a row now I've woken up from them.  I can barely remember them now, because I was stupid and didn't write anything down...  But still, what I can remember of them is enough for my little brain right now. ^^  Especially since I've been very jumpy at night; I think it's because for like... the first time in most of the summer, I've been sleeping alone.  It doesn't matter that I'm still downstairs, I've still worked myself up into that silly little mood where I'm left scared to look behind me or even open my eyes.  Two nights in a row, man!  That can't possibly be a good sign.  Stress always pops up in nightmares for me.

Gaaah

I also found out that papermate doesn't even MAKE my pencils anymore. -_-;  It sucks big time, but I think I'm gonna try convincing my mom to get a bunch from e-bay.  Oh yeah, and tracksuits are freaking expensive if you're looking for red ones.  Frustrationnnnn

I'm gonna go and doodle things, because doodling is always fun! 8D  And I want to fill up my sketchbook so I can get a new one >>;  It's falling apart...

This icon makes me giggle 8D

Mmm, I haven't really... done much today.  I woke up at 7 with dog all excited and wanting to play... so I shoved him outside for a bit and when he came back inside he curled up with me and we slept some more, haha.  Until he decided he wanted to wake up.  Oof!  So he was jumping at me trying to get me up...  Got up around 9:30ish, probably. xD;  I really shouldn't have woken up at 7 to begin with... Bear would've kept sleeping and I wouldn't be so tired now!  Ugh.  I was up sorta late last night talking to a friend, yea?  I tend to do that.

But then my dad dragged me and my sister to go shopping, which was... strange.  He doesn't like going shopping, especially when it involves multiple stops.  We went to three different stores looking for a hat for him =P  And... we ended up with some school supplies and a bunch of wig heads!  Haha, they're lined up on the ironing board and 3 of the 4 have wigs on them.  We have 4 wigs though xD;  I'm gonna use one for Nanaki, probably...

And UGH!  I was planning on dying my Ashley wig black for Rukia...  But everyone was saying that it's a hassle and it won't turn out actually black.  -_-; Gee, that's nice.  So I need to get another wig, in the EXACT same style, mind, just black.  Maybe I can find something else for the Ashley wig =P  Maybe I could get it sorta looking like Hiyori?  I should do some testing...  I don't want to just waste the wig  http://www.cosplay.com/photo/1473777/  Oh damn ugly photo xD;  But yeah, that's what it looks like(I was at a girl scout event, and so it's... not exactly sitting right, probably xD;)

Oof, if I tried hard enough I might get Hiyori's pig tails outta that, but chances are it'll look a little funky!  And I can't think offhand any blonde chicks that I really like enough to cosplay as =P

Ramble asiiiiiide!  Then I went to a friend's house for a bit; we bummed around, took a walk, all that jazz.  She always updates me on what's going on with most people my age xD;  It's amusing to listen to, because she's just one of those people who gets along with most everyone.

I'm gonna go run off to mess with my wig!!!!!

I had to drop a trimester of band, and drop french completely, but my schedule is fixed!  (Gotta talk to the band teacher about that, hahaaaaa)

Now, it's the wonderful:

AP Language and Composition(2 tris)
US History(2 tris)
Chemistry(2 tris)
Concert Band(2 tris)
Advanced Drawing and Painting(2 tris)
Web Design(1 tri)
Digital Imaging II(1 tri)
Pottery(1 tri)
Creative Writing(1 tri)
New Moves(1 tri)

8D I'm quite content with this, even though I did wanna take French... whatever though, yea?

Still feeling a little sick though. D:<

Random thought: Finally going through and getting some userpics REALLY makes me want to upgrade my lj account, AND get the 100 userpics limit. xD;  I'm addicted!

Darnit, I just got a call from my school to tell me that, lo and behold, my schedule is fucked up!  Oh, I wonder what classes it is?  Going tomorrow at 9 to fix it. -_-;  3rd year in a row something's been wrong!  Granted, I enjoyed the classes that I DID end up into, but now it's at a point where I NEED these classes and I will be SCREWED if I don't get them.

Just for giggles, here's my messed up schedule.  No clue what's the problem, but I'd rather not find out until tomorrow anyway!

-AP Language and Composition
-Band
-French 1
-Chemistry
-Gym
-Advanced Drawing and Painting
-Web Design
-US History

THIS SUCKS!  20 bucks says I'm not getting into Web Design.  The only classes that I can afford to drop are that, French, and possibly Band.  Because honestly, I don't need any of those to graduate.  I don't need art to graduate either, but I will be PISSED if I have to drop it!  Grr!

>>;  not happy

Hahaaaa, I thought that today was gonna be a crappy day 'cuz I got woken up by Bear Dog at like... 7ish and was all 'FUCK MY BACK IS IN AGONY' I ended up grabbing an ice pack in like, my half asleep daze and laid there for awhile with it on my back; felt so much betterrrrrr.  But then I sorta fell back asleep after taking it off and when I woke up it was some more agony and now my ice pack wasn't cold D8  So I wasn't very content... Dragged myself to my feet eventually and was prepared to sit at home whining all day...

And my sister is all 'Hey, lets go to Castle Heights!' which is a park about a mile away and like... right next to a lot of friends. xD;  So we get dressed and all and randomly pop up at a friends' house (sorry if we caused you any agony ^^;) for awhile... until they weasel their way into going to the park as well!  Whoo!  We ended up all going to another friend's house because it was hot and baaaah.  I was probably getting dehydrated at this point from biking and such...  I practically collapsed at the house; couldn't even bike all the way there (It's like... 5 minutes!) and oof!  We chilled out in their basement and it was nice because I hadn't seen some of my peeps in AGESSSSSSSSS.  And we were sorta mulling about cosplay, because we're all complete nerds xD;  And I got to listen to people fangirl heehee, that's always amusing :)

We got a ride home, which I was very grateful for because... I just overall feel like crap xD;  I'm gonna ice my back again, once I can figure out how without having to lay down... =P  Or maybe I could lay down for a bit!

Either way, I had a lot of fun because I love just lying around with friends, fwahaha!  And I avoided getting hurt on my bike 8D  Almost ran into a wooden post, but.. other than that I'm good! xD;

I'm content :)  Went on a bit of an icon hunt, got me some more icons to use!  I can sense that I shall be addicted to these things already. =P

I still want my back massage! D:<

Yo!  Back from the camper, took a shower, all that fun stuff.

I pretty much just sat around and rode my bike.  =P Like seriously, if I hopped on my bike right now and started pedaling, my legs would be sore in no time.  If I run, my legs'll feel sore.  It's an odd feeling, I have to say.  Like... if you swam too much, then suddenly get out of the water and your legs feel all weak like they can't support your weight.  So you stumble a little and hope no one notices!  And it sorta hurts to sit on my bike but whatever xD;  Not too bad, at least!

And yesterday was Halloween in August so all the little kids dressed up and went trick or treating heehee. x3  There was a haunted house sorta thing and Frith it was dark in there!  I couldn't see a thing and of course, everything jumped out of the corners =P I clung to my sister because... I just did, and she made fun of me for iiiiiiit. Bah!  But whatever, it gave me ideas for stuff fwahahaha

Aaaah I really don't have much to say.  I had stuff floating through my mind, but I completely lost it!  Which means it wasn't too important, heheh.  Ah... nearly got ran over by my sister a few times while we were biking.  I hate biking with her!  She insists on being right next to me, which makes me paranoid because she swerves all the time!  Oof, then she complains about how I always want to be ahead of her...  I dunno, I like biking at my own pace =P  And surprisingly, I went injury free!  I always seem to fall off my bike, one way or another...  It sucks!

Fufufu, I'm sleepy.

Bleh, we're going up to the camper today until Sunday I think...  This sucks. x_x;  I wanted to, y'know, stay home and sleep.  Stay home and talk to peeps online!  Stay home and feel like I'm home.  I realised that I just can't sleep well up at the camper...  One reason or another I wake up, and Frith up a tree unless I sleep backwards I'm gonna have a prime spot to scare myself shitless if I do wake up!  Funny how you can associate a place with such fear, yea?  And I can't even go swimming! Gah!  It's so annoying.

I'm thinking again. =P  I have a lot on my mind, and as usual no place to say it.  I'm not gonna lie, livejournal is a wonder for me.  Now I can save all my rants, and I can keep certain people from reading things if I so wish. :)  So I don't have any drama going on, online or off.  Not unless I want the drama to happen, but I usually don't unless I'm in a twisted mood.  Drama brings stress!  But still, knowing exactly who my audience is can be hard at the same time.  I know exactly who's going to read what I write, and I've caught myself filtering things mentally for that reason.

Urgh I'm in so much turmoil right now!  Over silly little things and I don't know what I want.  My mind could honestly go either way and the flip flopping bothers me; I don't know which side to choose.  Do I say yes or no?  What would happen if I did?  How different would my life be, either way?  In a good or bad way?  Why can't I come to a conclusion?  I've always hated making those pro/con lists because they do nothing for me.  It's like if you're thinking of shooting someone in the head, and you're incredibly sadistic in the first place... so your pro/con list would look like this:

Pro
-Get to kill someone
-Get to use a gun
-Fun!!!

Con
-Go to jail

Just because there's more pros than cons doesn't mean you should do it!  And it's sorta how I am... except I'm not thinking about shooting anyone. =P  Pros and cons can be weighted differently, but you can't really... measure that weight easily.  And so I'm stuck here utterly confused, and I don't even know what I want.  It quite sucks!

Whateverrrrr, I'll figure it out eventually yea?  Hopefully soon...

I think it's safe to say that I'm tired. xD;  I did a lot of walking with my sister and a friend, seriously.  We took Bear and went up to the play ground by the Elementary School and the High School, randomly popped in on a few friends, and then... Took the long way back.  Haha!  So much walking. =p  I managed to end up with a weird stomach cramp near the end, which was... just strange.  Like when you laugh enough that you can't stop laughing and it just hurts xD;

But whatever!  After that we went to Holiday to get pop, and ended up with 44 ounces of Dr Pepper.. each. oO;  Our feet were a bit sore from all the walking, so we... lazed around a lot then.  =P  I was the only one wearing decent shoes though, haha!  And then at seven we went with another friend to Tae Kwon Do, and OH MAN THAT WAS FUN. I can't even begin to say how awesome it was xD;  It started pouring part way through and we just sorta... stood there in the rain waiting, haha!  Aaaah it was amazing!  Wasn't until I sat in the car for awhile that I realised how cold I was, oof!  Wet clothes aren't fun when you're just sitting around, especially at night. =P

I pretty much crashed after that, haha.  I don't know when I fell asleep, but I vaguely remember hearing my sister and my friend talking about some random junk. =p  Woke up at 6, realised that I was sore and hungry, and fell asleep for another 3 hours...  We've done nothing today. xD;  Just sat around in front of the tv or on the computer, because there's nothing to do!  Haha, I'm just... tired, really.

Wheeeeeeee

I really don't know what's up with me anymore. >_e;  I've felt so annoying lately, and I partially want to blow it off on me expecting my period(Better it come today than tomorrow, eh?  No horrible cramps, surprisingly...) but that's such... a petty excuse.  I don't want to be the kind of person to always be 'lol pms sorry' because I don't think it makes up for any sort of attitude I get.  I just... know I can be better than that. ^^;  And so it really bugs me when I get like this; I shouldn't!

Oof, I hate all these disjointed thoughts in my head!  I can't ever grasp them, because I constantly sit there and go 'No, stupid.  Stupid.  That is also stupid' and so... I'm stuck swarming with way too many ideas and it bothers me... My plans fall through because I don't take the care to tell anyone.  If no one knows, I lose motivation.  Very quickly, at that.  -_-  And then I just have those things in my mind; random musings and such, positive or negative, that if I can't find time to voice...  Or reason to, just stay in my mind.

But because I never reach out to pinpoint all my little thoughts, to write them down or tell someone...  A lot of the things I say can seem a bit random, or drastic.  It may be based on things I've thoroughly thought out, but to anyone else it's babble.  I really don't like being seen as a babbler, but I know I am.  I just can't keep everything in my head, yea?  If I can't find the right place to say something... it might just randomly pop out, and that's when I seem like a nutcase.  I am a bit of a strange person; I don't think I'm absolutely crazy all the time...  Heheh

I've been getting more and more scared of my room lately.  I didn't used to be so paranoid going into it, until... ah, probably until we watched so many scary movies and I was paying slightly more attention to them!  Oof.  I really do like scary movies, but I'm worried that come school, I'll be in my room having all sorts of nightmares and hearing things and just...  Undue stress, basically!  Ugh, I just always expect something to be behind me... it's not cool.

Well, I need to hand the laptop off to my sister =P

Tae Kwon Do tomorrow!  Woah I've never done anything like this but it's always had me so amazed and I'm determined to have a good time! 8D

Fufufu, we had our family reunion today.  Usually the same people are there, which means me and my younger sister meander off with a... second cousin, I think she is? =P  So we did.  And we found a random hook on a piece of fishing line, so we tied it to some long grass and had ourselves a fishing rod! xD  It was pretty epic.  We caught like... 5 fish.  My sister did all the catching; I sat there... whittling a stick.  xD;  It started out as me just sharpening it for fun...  I stripped it of all the bark and any extra branch... sticky outy bits. xD  It's mostly smooth, except towards the end because my thumb was getting sore, and it still is. -laugh-  Ah well, such is life!

I've been thinking more about cosplay stuff.  I'm definitely still doing Nanaki, because he's just full of epicness and win, and I can't let myself just... not make him!  D:  But obviously it would be very stupid if I expected to be able to handle a fursuit for 3 days!  Oof...  And I do have other costumes, but they're not... as cool unless I have a group with me. xD  Haruhi Suzumiyaaaa, ya?  Because I'm either alone, or some random looking lolita xD  And then with Ashley; it's a nice costume, except I dunno... I'd use it more for Girl Scout things where I'm outside xD;

So!  I turned to Bleach. =P  Been obsessing over it enough lately(Finished reading all that's been translated!) and I KNOW I can be awesome if I try hard enough.  There's three characters I like: Rukia, Soi Fon, and Hiyori.  I think I deserve an award for never picking characters with remotely blue eyes ;)  I know that I'm gonna end up doing Rukia EVENTUALLY; I may even turn my Ashley wig into hers because... it's practically the same hair style xD; Just completely different color!

And if I do Rukia, I could make multiple costumes, because I wouldn't be content with just one. =P  To add to that... I wouldn't go without her sword if I dared to do the Shinigami costume.  Seriously, if I'm going to jump into the mass of black fabric, I'm gonna be recognisable and NOTHING would scream Rukia without a doubt but a white sword xD;  So that'd be... an interesting thing to try.  I know absolutely nothing about woodworking!!!!  Whoooo, or much about swords but I got a friend who I'm sure would help a bit to keep me from doing something stupid ;)  Can't be real metal, because... that's just going too far for cosplay, and I'd have to keep it bound the entire time!  Boooooo

Soi Fon, I'd really want to do if my friend is Yoruichi. =P Seriously, it just... should be done. xD  She wouldn't be too hard in my eyes, except for the fact that I am horrendously built... not like someone with boobs. xD  And her costume is very, hahahaha revealing.  Oof! Maybe I'll have to think a bit more on this xD

Hiyori would be quite interesting, with the fact that she has pig tails. =P  She's also got a sword, but that one wouldn't be... as much of an issue because she's always got it on her back and that might end up just getting annoying for me. xD  But I don't think she even has it with her all the time--Her hollow mask would be a thousand times more recognisable, and a lot funner! Whoo!  Not to mention she has an extremely comfortable looking costume, so that would be a major plus!  Except the flip flops D8 I hate flip flops.  Whatev, she's an amusing character!

So there's my random cosplay babble.  Can you believe I have absolutely no sewing skills? xD  Err, at least, I've never really used a sewing machine.  I can hand sew, haha!  And I have a mom who can sew. 8D  So she could help me xD

... I got no sleep last night.

I laid down around 11, curled up with my phone because I needed to.  No sleep.  Check my phone, it's 12:44.  wtf?  I guess I manage to fall into a sleep or something... 3:00, I wake up.  More sleep; 5:00.  Finally, I fall asleep again... wake up around 8ish and lay in a daze for an hour.  -_-

I had an INSANE amount of dreams.  Just one after another.  The first one I don't remember as well; I remember my friend calling me in it, and flipping out about something I sent her.  Way to go, mind, way to go. -snort-  It was some weird thing with a dusty town where people just wanted others to stay or something.  Then I had one where we were in the mall.  Again, wtf?  We go into Best Buy and Gamestop; the same friend who called me in the other dream bought a 4000 dollar laptop.  It looked dinky, as well.  But we sat in the store until it was dark, like seriously, all the lights in the mall were off.  She was on her laptop, I was curled up on a friend's knee and my sister was just sitting.  All of a sudden we were all just like 'Okay, get out NOW. I'm freaked' So little miss laptop, haha, is fumbling to turn the laptop off.  I snatch it from her and we take off running; my parents came out of a store they were in and followed us.  We get into the car, my sister goes into the front seat while the car is running and I'm trying to get in, then ends up turning the wheel. I spazzed at her because... I was trying not to step on Bear. WTF?  Then I woke up.

It was nuts. I mean, I can understand a few parts of it; doesn't take much to realise that my mind was expecting things to happen that night.

I don't know what else to say.  I want people to start waking up so I'm not the only one awake... I want someone to talk to, gah...

I haven't posted anything all day! That's strange for me. =P  I don't... have much to say though!  I've been sitting around a lot today.  Stretched a bit, if you could call it stretching haha!  More like me finally realising that no, I am not happy being a lazy ass and that yes, I suppose I can do something about it! (Who knew a gamecube and a trumpet could pass off as weights?)

And I'm done with my ankle.  Any soreness is just a freaking annoyance to me, so I'm going to ignore it.  At this point I know I just have to strengthen it.  I'll probably still wrap it, but I don't want to sit there and tell my mom 'yea, it's still sore... ^^' because she really... had no clue what I did to it. =P  I never told her, and she wouldn't have found out if I didn't leave the ankle wrap lying in the living room!  But I really can't keep it wrapped much longer.  I basically have to wear flip flops if I do, and once school starts that... isn't much of an option.  I don't want to have to explain to more people!

The days have been really... slow lately.  I'm not sure.  I'll wake up and I'm tired.  Sit around, tired.  I'll usually go on the computer, bum on the couch, sit in my room, maybe sit outside for a bit... etc.  And I'm tired.  Most of the time I'll be texting someone, but not always.  My phone's with me either way.  Maybe I'll take a shower(I don't take one every day; my hair would be pissed!) and I'll either sing or think.  Depends on what's on my mind!  But then... I sit there.  And wait.  Maybe talk to people on aim, depends on my mood and if I'm on the computer.  Usually on the computer after 7 though...  Nothing happens!  I'm just always so bored... Urgh

Tuesday will be interesting though!  Hahaaa, I'm still sorta wondering how I got talked into going to Tae Kwon Do with a friend. =P  There's that part of me that says I'm a complete fool, and that part of me that says this is fucking awesome.  I won't be the only complete newbie there; Rim's gonna come!  And my little sister is coming and sitting.  -_-;  I'm gonna taunt and tease her and see if I can get her to do something~  Or else find a reason to laugh at her, fwahahaha!  I'm such a nice older sister.

Ughhhh I'm still so bored though...  I feel like I'm just going to collapse!  There's nothing else to do but sleep.  Sleep sleep sleep, that's all I want to do.  But I won't let myself sleep because I don't need it!  I know I don't need to sleep half the day!  So I won't.  I haven't been staying up as late as I normally would over the summer, though.  Probably because there's nothing to do online when no one is online to talk to, yea?  And because I'm sleeping downstairs, I can't really sleep in, not that I... sleep in much anyway.  I get woken up by people moving around and such.  If I were in my room I could easily sleep until 10!  But I don't like sleeping in my room.  Bah.

Chapter 201 of Bleachhh

Such a pointless journal!

Grrr, thinking too much really frustrates me sometimes!  It's bad enough that I can have trouble sleeping when my mind is racing... but it gets ridiculous sometimes.

I honestly laid there for half an hour, going through the same thing in my head at least 3 or 4 times before I found the nerve to text someone.  I fell asleep with it on my mind and woke up around 5:30.  At first I thought I'd be able to fall back asleep in no time, until I started thinking.  And then I started freaking out a little.  Nothing THAT bad, honestly.  It wasn't pitch black and people were sort of up, but not around.  But I couldn't shake the stupid feeling and so I covered my head and just rrrgh!

I'm glad I had someone to talk to, though.  Something that could've easily escalated into me curling up into a ball trying not to think turned into me settling down fairly quickly.  Probably the first time it's happened, too.  It's quite calming to think about.

On the slightly more positive side, I'm getting my hair done in about... 4 hours!  5:45, man!  I'm really excited about it. ^^  I can't really say much else about it, hahaaa

My back's sorta sore.  I don't know if it's a sign that I'm going to get my period soon(Even though I know I will...) or if it's from stretching yesterday!  Maybe both.

Fufufufu this journal was slightly pointless!

http://www.onemanga.com/Bleach/155/18/
This page makes me think.

I talk too much.  Haha!  I'm not sure how many people have noticed... it's hard to keep track because I'll set things as public, friends only, local friends, online friends, etc etc.  I even have filters for some individual people, which can make it even more complicated on how much I ramble!  -laugh-  Because then, who knows except me what I fully talk about?  Oh!  Then there's the lovely 'me only' journals. =P  Those are ones I never finished, or are things I don't feel like sharing with anyone.  Of course, those kind of things are few and far between; why would I voice my thoughts with even the slightest possibility of someone being able to find it, if I wanted them to be private?

So, I can quite easily say that anything I do say was said for a reason.  ^^  For someone to read it.  Or maybe just to say something.  I do that sometimes; maybe to see reactions, to seperate those who are easily tricked and those who see through things, to find out who cares...  -shrug-  I think too much, I suppose?

But, with all the trouble thinking gets me in, I'd rather be thinking than being blissfully unaware of the world around me.  Ignorance may be bliss, and the truth can use some hiding sometimes, but I'm not one to just ignore things going on around me. ^^

So it turns out that we aren't going up to the camper at all.  We're just taking a day trip to Duluth tomorrow.  That makes me feel a lot better, hmm?

Reading manga and watching movies always puts me in an interesting frame of mind...  The only way I can describe it is... heightened awareness?  Like when I'm arguing with someone; that slight queasy feeling but... it's interesting. ^^  I usually don't feel this way, but it really does help to bring me out of bad moods.

Today turned out to be... relatively normal, so far.  I sat around a lot doing nothing...  Read two volumes of Bleach, which surprisingly took longer than I expected! Tch, whatever, it feels more worthwhile for me to be reading over watching TV for two hours...  You get through more, you can stop easier, etc etc.  I like reading manga more!  Reading in general is more fun, hmm?  Even though I get a stiff neck from it... Get caught up and just sorta forget to eat, drink, etc etc...  xD;  I can be a ditz sometimes!

Mmmm, last night I was falling asleep to this documentary, Super Skinny Me.  Two English journalists, I think it was? decided to spend 5 weeks going through extreme diets to try and drop to a size 0.  It was slightly creepy to watch; diets ranging from a strange lemonade to nothing but raw food, or one was to just have like... one absolutely pathetic liquid meal a day.  Even after the first week, you could tell that the both of them were looking extremely unhealthy and just... sickly looking.  They coupled the diets with crazy ass excercise regimes, which was just... crazy.

Probably the creepiest aspect was that it was... REALLY affecting one of their minds.  She was absolutely appalled with herself when she broke down and ended up eating more than 800 calories one day(The average is something like... 2000, that they recommend) and just -shudder-  So I'm just gonna flat out say this, to the few friends who I know would take notice to this: If you try ANYTHING like that for whatever reason, I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching you. :)  I think it falls under the same stupid category so many of us have rocky relations with!  And I expect the same from you guys, to be fair! (Not like I need to lose weight, oof...  I might need to gain muscle and lose fat, but that's completely different from weight!)

I'm in the mood for more random tangents, I do believe!!!  Those are always fun. =P

Well, I just found out I'm getting my hair done on Tuesday.  Finally! UGH!  I've been waiting since... April, pretty much xDDDD;  That's about when I decided to color my hair, heheh...  Took a few months xD;  Maybe I'll get some pictures up, heheh.  I'm excited now!  Mmm, not quite sure what I want to do with it style wise, though...  What could be considered my 'bangs' are a strange length, and I have a lot of split ends as usual!  I have time to think. =P

Urgh, I think I'm getting slightly testy over nothinggggggg!  I hate it when I get like this...  Grrrrrrr!

Today is going to be a strange day.  I could tell the moment I woke up; things felt odd.  All the lights were off and it's not like it was 6 in the morning when I woke up...  When I finally got up, Bear came running to the door and I let him outside.  It's so eerie out there!  A storm's supposed to come but I'm not sure if there's been any rain yet... I've heard thunder already.  There's a dog howling outside, poor guy sounds so sad.

So yes.  I can easily say something is strange.  Maybe I'm gonna turn into one of those folks who get twinges in their joints when it's going to rain? Haha!  Now that would be a funny thing. ;)  I'll have to see how it gets strange later today, though!  It'd be quite amusing to find out.  Hopefully not in a bad way; I don't want to deal with bad strangeness right now!

That aside, I need to get started on my fursuit stuff soon. -sob-  It's in April, right?  Sometime in the spring.  But I mean... agh!  I want to get this done and not be rushed because I KNOW if I'm rushed everything will go wrong.  Just 'cuz it'll be my first fursuit doesn't mean I'm going to accept mediocracy!  I know that I can make it look good.  Infact, I know I can make it look awesome, because my perfectionist self will spazz at the slightest of things.  I know how I'm gonna make it, too.  I've sat there mulling over the details like I always do.  Gonna be one of those awesome Nanaki's(And boy, do I have competition!  There's so many awesome Nanaki suits out there!)

I'm determined to make Detour a blast.  I'm determined for it to be more awesome than it was last year.  Agh, even with all my worries about it already, it's got to work out.  Right? ^^  Everything's going to work, there'll be no tears from me, and we'll all be smiling our faces off!  And that's what I decree!  Grrrrr

Well this sucks... The radar looks like we're only getting like... nice little showers. Pfff I wanted a storm!

Oops, my wrist is sore right now. =P Been leaning on it oddly for 15, 20 minutes now. ^^;

So... the camper, which I thought was just a mess to begin with because everything was falling through... somehow pulled together at the last minute.  I was absolutely ECSTATIC to find out that, instead of MAYBE one person, three people ended up coming up with us.  I never expected it but it was definitely a welcome surprise! :D

And I don't think I can even begin to say how sore I am.  We went swimming multiple times each day, went to the park, and just like... walked around.  At the park was one of those little merry go rounds, the wooden ones that you just sit on and spin in circles... Hahaaaaaa!  I was just sitting on it on the edge, sorta holding onto the bar that I was... probably supposed to be behind.  One of my friends suddenly runs up and is all 'Let's make Brittany spin!!!!' and takes off running.  I can't get my grip on the bar well enough and I just tumbled off, landed maybe 10 feet away?  I just broke out laughing my head off like a complete maniac. xD;  It hurt a bit, but I pretty much fell onto my side, I guess?

But when you couple that with sore ankles and sore arms (I'd cling to the edge of the pool and use my arms to support most of my weight and keep my head out of the water.  Not the best of choices!) and a random sore neck...  I guess I'm sore. xD;  I had such a blast though, and it doesn't really matter!  Nice way to just forget about things, eh?  I was a little blaaah today up there, but I was starting to get dehydrated and sunburnt and oof I could've slept the day away!  I'll be good in a day or two!

There was an annoying thunderstorm last night.  Thunderstorms in a camper, a pop up to add to that(so a lot of it is canvas) just suck.  The rain's pounding over your head and it sounds like hail, we had one of the windows opened up and it was at most of our feet(4 out of 5 people ended up sleeping on one bed... oO;) so when there was lightning it was so bright...  I'm almost always fine with thunderstorms.  The thunder and lightning doesn't bother me unless it's EXTREMELY close, and then it scares the shit out of me.  But when the rain is pouring like it did, I just can't sleep and it really does start scaring me.  I don't know why; it's just so loud and it sounds so much different and then you get the thunder and lightning and uuuurgh!  Haha, then I got a little creeped out because I looked across to the other bed and saw someone sitting up... My mind was all 'whoashit!' for a second until I realised it was Rim sitting up in bed watching the storm.  =P

Aaaagh my eyes sorta burn from getting chlorine in them...  And up my nose.  Urgh!  That's why I always wear a snorkel mask, but it was being stupid and grrrrr

I'm gonna go lay down now, I do believe. xD;  I have a headache, too!  I never get headaches, so this is strange.

Hey guys. :)  Heheh, I should look back and see how I start off all these journals, 'cuz I'm sure I've said that multiple times!  The joys of being able to save my rants and raves!

I guess I don't have much to say right now.  I'm gonna be up at the camper again this afternoon.  Oof, lots of issues around that, but I can't let everything bring me down. ^^  Had my moment and that's the end of it, I'm having a good time there despite everything else!  Even if it takes me just lying face first in the pool with my snorkel like a dead body, because I'm sure that I'd end up doing that!  It's quite calming when you can drown out all the noise, really.

And we're gonna see The Dark Knight... again. heheh, my mom and sister want to see it... And I'm not going to object, ya?  And even if I didn't want to see it again I'd get the same little emo routine from my younger sister.  'God Britt you never want to go anywhere, stop being so emo! Ugh!'  It's annoying, but whatever, I can deal with it.  I've got 14 years of dealing with her under my belt, eh?

This sorta sucks.  I had so much going on in my head at like... 4 in the morning when I woke up and couldn't fall back asleep. x_x;  And now I can't think of any of it!  I can sit here and complain about nothing, but it's just petty complaints that really don't matter.  Things that aren't even that annoying, but it's there and there's not much to do about it!  I think I'm gonna stop complaining about those kind of things.  Like I said, petty and useless and it probably doesn't help me out at all, to be whining.

So it sounds like my mom is gonna try and get ahold of a friend's mom, even though they're up at their camper already... I really hope she gets ahold of her and asks because we had already invited her and her mom was being... typical of herself and decided to leave up to their camper early. :) It's a long story, but if my mom talks to her mom there's a good chance that she actually CAN come up to the camper!  Man I hope so...  That would be the ultimate squeal fest for me!

I've had this song, Moving to Seattle, stuck in my head for awhile...  It's like seriously some emo song (go look up the lyrics =P) but it's so catchy and bleeegh!  I like it.

And I think... I need to get started on my english stuff, ho man.  I've got to read through some chapters of this book on writing, take notes... memorise vocab, but a lot of it looks really easy...  And write a narrative essay but I don't know what about yet!  AAAGH!  It's horrible!  I could always write about my friends because hell, there's stories to be had in there and lessons galore!  There's absolutely no denying that!  But I'm almost not sure if I should, at the risk of sounding like some emotionally unstable teen!  Haha.  Y'know what? I think I will write about my friends.  If I can churn out all these journals, I can spruce things up and make it english paper worthy. ;)  And I know the teacher so it's all good!

Haha, whenever I think about him, I remember how he told me to read a book about kittens and mountainous fields of flowers!  I don't think I read a single book in his class that was a happy book, haha!  Jurassic Park... Cujo...  Probably more that I can't remember anymore. =P  But hey, last year I read Carrie and A String of Pearls.  I just like darker books, I guess? xD;  I need more though!  Oof, books that Brittany can read are in need!

Aaaaaagh I need to get started on cosplay stuff!  D8  I need plenty of time to do it and asdlkjsdd  Oh man and detour aaaagh I have so many little... quips about it.  Worries? I don't know! Aaagh!